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Saturday, November 18, 2006

eshayz

Ohmalorddddd !! This thing is still here, been over a YEAR old .. Fuck bro, I haven't blogged in agess .. I want to start again but I don't think I would be bothered - Lol . & There's nothing to blog about nowadays .
well, now, I'm in year 8, there's like, 11 days till my birthday and again, im lonely this year ! roflmaoo . i dont think i ever want to date in the month of November again, it always fucks up x) haha . and bruh, i go to birrong . so ignore that shit that's called my profile .

Right NOW .
I need to know what to do .
I need to know what YOU want me to do .
And if you're gonna ask what I want to do .
I honestly DONT know .
You're a confusing person .
I want to be with you, but another part of me says,
I'm better off without you and there's better .
At times I know there is someone better out there for me,
But at other times, I don't want to see me with anyone else but
YOU
And I don't want to see anyone else with you either, cos that would
KILL me ..
& If i let go, I can't turn back ..
But if I hold on, I can't move on ..
So baby .. Tell me ..
What do you need me to do ..

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Thursday, October 27, 2005

__ _ ehehes i can't help its..

okay yeahs.. i know i was meant to start a new blog and whatevers.. but christina i don't think has even started it yets .. ><" eheh so i'll just blog for the time being.. MSN spaces can go kiss my ass..
.. lols .. ace is annoying me.. ><" him and his questions lols.. hmms.. what's been happening lately? i don't know? T___T things just fucked up yesterday and school is getting better i guess. not as it was before but i guess i have to live with it.

right now pumping on my stereo is MARIAH CAREY ! lols; she so good it makes me scared ><" and;and;and__ NEV ; we WILL go outs one day aiights? =] just i'm a little busy cause my birthday's coming up.. *wiinkwiink*
lols ; OH and i need a NEW CAMERA CHARGER ><" i miss my digi.. life so hard without its.. lols; hmms..
stupid hayfever ! i'm sniffing like a mofo -.-"
ok this is random shit man.. i don't know what i'm typing ups.. ><" i feel stupid =]

<33's in the air ; VANESSA*AND*STEVEN .. aww it makes me puke =] you know what linda said to me the other night?
"aww omgs.. your so pretty and everything and you cant find the right when. when im so ugly and fat and i found the right one"
a] i'm not pretty and everything -.-"
b] AND I HAVE FOUND SOMEONE SPECIAL >_<"
c] and your not UGLY AND FAT
d] and yes you do have mr right =]

so many people .. in <3? but heartbroken also? it scares me =\ wel i'muh go nows.. hope my layout is coming soon.. lols .. =] laters xox; <3 jenjen

Posted at 06:36 pm by bayb-princess
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Friday, October 21, 2005

*a new beginning ___ _

happy birthday anna =) my bubs; missing you heaps hunny !

last night was bad.. i don't want to think about it. it was my fault.. =\ And i seriously did something stupid ; so i'm just going to start over.

with no lies; no regrets; no pain behind my smile. and it was all thanks to school.. well during period 5; language; deanne asked what was wrong.. and i said nothing.. then i just broke down and told her how i feel about the group.. i told farnaz too.. and then they told gina, nicolletta and wadad.. i don't think they understood why.. i knew deanne and farnaz did.. well.. at least i got it off my chest. after 4 months.. why didn't i talk to them earlier.. i don't knows.. i think now i'm starting to get my life back on track..
i kind of feel stupid and shitty though.. kind of blaming them.. but i guess i was telling them how i felt? oh wells .. =\
so i'm gonna make a new blog; but keep this one; and just start over.

Posted at 06:39 pm by bayb-princess
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Thursday, October 20, 2005

i miss you* aaron halL

ok this one is for christina =D

well mummy dropped me off @ bankstown library .. and thinking i was studying.. Shirley met up with me and then we saw amanda and jenny and stuff. and we were walking around.
after we went seperate ways and thens .. yeah we bummed around ; got told off @ k mart for crushing foundations . that was what you were meant to do . anyways we went to get oportos and ANNA COMES . =9 anty rings shirley and asks us where we were .. we went to meet up at maccas upstairs ; and i didn't get the toy so i screamed fuck ! out of NO WHERE a ball hits my head and i turn around. the faggot and his friend. xP umm .. nothing much happened . went into david jones got TOLD OFF again -.-' and went into some chemist and he said we were buying tampons . ><" and thens in david jones he was being a show off .. i called out SHOW OFF and i thought he didnt hear .. anna told me later he gave me a dirrty xP then he poked my bag and said he was gonna go home .. so yeahs >_<"
then ME&ANNA SPOTTED A HOTTIE OMG so HOT i SWEAR .. xP ok ok i'l shuttup .. then i went home .. so tired.. laters >_<"

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Monday, October 17, 2005

i wish you knew * mariah carey

i feel like deleting this blog ? i don't knows . ok ; i'm going to stop blogging for a while ? maybe not blog that much . i'm getting sick of blogging . anyways ; bye bye for nows ^^

Posted at 08:06 pm by bayb-princess
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Sunday, October 16, 2005

why ..

.. why can i hear you ; but just not understand?
.. why can i see you ; but i just can't make you out?
.. why can i make everyone else around me happy ; when i'm not truly happy myself?
.. why is it that i just can't be me ..

.. what is happening to me ? why can i never smile ? why can i never feel truly happy ? why are all the lies just becoming my own prison ? is truth the only key ? why is there no truth in my life ? even if i do have truth ; why can't i see it ? why is everything just a blur ? why can i not understand ? why can i not reach out ? why can i not cry ? why..

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Someday ; Oneday

Day to day and each night I pray that this ends
That there's someone out there that's gonna melt my heart away
And take me to another place
From the lonlieness that's driving me insane

I get so cold summer feels like the winter
When I'm at home, all alone I just cry
I wish that I could just lie like I'm happy
But I can't hide this hurt inside

But I'll tell you someday I'm gonna find
A guy that's gonna change my life
And I tell you one day just wait and see
True love is waiting out there for me

I'm like an open book just trying to turn the page
Feels like I'm trapped in a maze trying to find my way
Oh my heart's yearning for someone to call my own
And I don't wanna sing another sad love song again

I get so cold summer feels like the winter
And not a full moon of gloom that just cried?
I wish that I could just lie like I'm happy
But I can't hide this hurt inside

Posted at 06:36 pm by bayb-princess
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Saturday, October 15, 2005

Life Long Goals .

`1. Not to get a boyfriend until i'm out of highschool .
`2. Not to get into this whole relationship bullshit until mum says i can .
`3. Listen to my parents once in a while .
`4. Try hard in school and not let this depression shit get to me .
`5. Get my life back on track .
`6. Not start shit with people .
`7. Get the urge to talk to my ex's and actually talk to them when i SHOULDN'T BE talking to them .
`8. Stay true to my heart .
`9. Follow my intuition .
`10. Not to break these goals

Posted at 08:28 pm by bayb-princess
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nowhere* 112

Mood ` » i don`t know =\
Random thought ` » .. my heart ..

ok, MSN is pissing the shit out of me . >_>" cause it's taking ages for it to download . >_<" stupid slow - arse cable ; why can`t i get unlimited . daddy said he`s gonna plant a bomb in my computer so then i could go for another zillion years without the net . (T___T) my daddy is sad . and now i gotta re - install everything and everyone`s tellinig me off for downloading music . mummy hates cable . merh . and my aunt was like ; "SO JENNY DO YOU HAVE A BOYFRIEND !? ANY GUYS FOLLOWING YOU !? YOU`RE REALLY PRETTY" and i died on the spot . i`m like, " ahahah no boyfriends now . we're all friends " * fake smile * and i`m not pretty either . >_>" or hot . * reads tagboard *
so this week ; i have been on the phone with anna everyday ; from SUNDAY to TODAY . =] * thumbs up * and we`ve been calling so many people . i pretened to be tien ? xP and cookie wanted to call her baby boy . xP " alwaiiez down 4 maii babii boii " anddd .. i accidentally sent a message to lucky ? (T___T) and he replied back ? it said ; "wasssup lucaiie ? my homiiie =] anyways hunny call me @ 6.2o and yeah .. waited for u 2 call me . luv ya . jenny " and he replied back going. " go on msn dan . " and i`m like ; " who`s this ? and who`s dan ? " -____-" and i realised it was lucky and dan was then . x)
school from monday to wednesday ; was great . and i mean ; i regretted all the things i thought and said . but then on thursday all the bitchiness came back and on friday was alright ? but it wasn`t as good as monday to wednesday . =[ tutor on monday was gay ? i started writing about cows =D and it was in formal language as well .. and chickens . =] chickens are sexy . christina ; DONKEYS ARE GAY . GO PIGS . =D . but CHICKENS ARE SEXIER . just don`t tell michael that or he`ll get his gangduhs on me . >_<" and on wednesday this rat gave shirley dirrtys . lemme ask hayley who she is . hayley ; if you read this . she has LONG HAIR . TIED UP . LOOKS LIKE A RAT . and is PALE . =] just ask linda who she is . >_>" and like ; sir caught me calling shirley ; shitlee and she said i was a bad influence and i should be moved to the corner . omgsh . wow .. that`ll just make me go even more crazy =D and i also left my girlfriend mag @ happy cup ? =[[ oh wells ;
me and marilou also talked on the phone . she burnt something .. and i heard the screaming . >_<" then i went before she got in more shit =\ me and christina talked as well . we watched home&away together . pissing buddies in harmony =']
oh and btws ; I LOVE ANTON . =] xox ; one week on sunday .. =....] ANNA LOVES JASON HEAPS =] anna and jason are so cute together .. * pinches their cheeks * and anton is wayyy cutterr then jason, anna =] so meh . XP
omgsh .. not even HALF WAY for my msn =[ i wish i had windows but it un-installed it self =[ now i`m on the phone with anton =] i love anton ; i love anton ; on the phone with him now and anna too . ahahah xP and OMDAWG ; stupid liar backstabbing idiot liar he doesn`t even know where i live . grr . me and anna hates someone now . >=..[

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Monday, October 10, 2005

cut .. =)

Cute Without The 'E' (Cut From The Team) by Taking Back Sunday
album: Tell All Your Friends (2002)

Your lipstick his collar don't bother angel,
I know exactly what goes on

When everything you'll get is
everything that you've wanted, princess
Well which would you prefer
My finger on the trigger, or
(me face down, down across your floor)
Me face down, down across your floor
(me face down, down across your floor)
Well just so long as this thing's loaded

And will you tell all your friends
you've got your gun to my head
This all was only wishful thinkin,
this all was only wishful thinkin
And will you tell all your friends
you've got your gun to my head
This all was only wishful thinkin,
this all was only wishful thinkin
let's go...

Don't bother trying to explain Angel
I know exactly what goes on when you're on and
How about I'm outside of your window
How about I'm outside of your window
Watchin him keep the details covered
You're such a sucker (you're such a sucker)
for a sweet talker

And will you tell all your friends
you've got your gun to my head
This all was only wishful thinkin,
this all was only wishful thinkin
(the only thing I regret is that I, I never let you hold me back)
And will you tell all your friends
you've got your gun to my head
This all was only wishful thinkin,
this all was only wishful thinkin

Hoping for the best just hoping nothing happens
A thousand clever lines unread on clever napkins
I will never ask if you don't ever tell me
I know you well enough to know you never loved me
(why can't i feel anything from anyone other than you)
Hoping for the best just hoping nothing happens
A thousand clever lines unread on clever napkins
I will never ask if you don't ever tell me
I know you well enough to know you never loved me
(why can't i feel anything from anyone other than you)
Hoping for the best just hoping nothing happens
A thousand clever lines unread on clever napkins
I will never ask if you don't ever tell me
I know you well enough to know...

And all of this was all your fault
And all of this

(I stay jealous)
I stay wrecked and jealous for this,
for this simple reason, I
just need to keep you in mind
as something larger than life
(she'll destroy us all before she's through
and find a way to blame somebody else)
I stay wrecked and jealous for this,
for this simple reason, I
just need to keep you in mind
as something larger than life
(she'll destroy us all before she's through
and find a way to blame somebody else)
I stay wrecked and jealous for this,
for this simple reason, I
just need to keep you in mind
as something larger than life!

CUTE WITHOUT THE EEEE ROCKS ^^ i got bored, posted by christinaaa XD i miss you hunnie =[ .. this song doesn't make much sense, but then when i read the lyrcis over and over, it DOES =D so READ .. >=)

http://baby-ck.adores.it * advertises * .. xD i miss you =\ i needa talk to you about something T__T

Posted at 06:59 pm by bayb-princess
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